Nineteen days until I'm a wife. Nineteen. I can't believe it- it's coming and it's coming fast. Sometimes I'm filled with waves of nervousness when what-if's flood my mind, but most of the time I'm overflowing with excitement (the kind that makes me want to laugh and cry at the same time).
I haven't written much in well, a few months, because honestly I haven't been sure how to put everything into words. I am currently living at home, working as a substitute teacher by day and at a childcare center by night. My weekends consist of wedding planning, apartment cleaning and commuting back and forth between home and what will be home. I've been applying to any teaching job that I see- with no real response and spend far too much time on pinterest finding ideas for my dream classroom and home.
Lifes been busy, life's been strange but this season has been short.
Living at home has been difficult, after not really full time living here since high school it has been an adjustment. I've changed, my parents have changed and it's been a struggle at times to see eye to eye- but it has really challenged me to grow.
So many changes are coming, so many things I could worry about but I KNOW God's got it. I really need to rest in that.
God's really been teaching me in this season that, in all seasons, HE is constant and He is in control.
Example: just a few weeks ago I was really worried about what I was going to do for a summer job (since subbing would end in early June and my income would stop). I had a few interviews that in the end had sounded really promising but I hadn't heard a response. So two weeks ago I had some serious time with God where I decided to let it go and give it all to Him- and wouldn't you know I got a job offer for each of the jobs I had applied for, and not only that- one of the jobs I had applied as a camp counselor at a small camp and they offered me the position of camp coordinator! I am beyond excited about this job- so much work to do, but it's going to be so worth it- I can just feel it :) If that's not proof God is faithful, I don't know what is!
So right now, in these days leading up to one of the most pivotal moments in my life I'm taking time to just be with God. To anchor my heart and my life deep in Him.
If you think of it over the next few weeks, could you pray for us? Could you pray that in these days leading up to our wedding that Christ would continue to grow us and root us in Him, that our marriage would be fully founded in His truths and that the gospel would be evident not only on our wedding day but through our lives. That our focus would be now and forevermore on Him. Thanks :)
April 23, 2012
February 14, 2012
Valentine's Day
Happy Valentine's Day!
For the first day in a few weeks I had a day completely off- no where to go, no sub calls, no work, no nothin'. Soooo what did I do but get all dressed up to run regular errands like put gas in my car and run to buy some envelopes. (come on, we all need to do it every once in awhile, it's healthy- do it.) I didn't get to see Ethan, but I did get a sweet package from him and had a nice valentine's dinner with my parents :)
Life has gotten busy lately, so busy that I forget to sit down and just soak in some God time- necessary- I know. I've started substitute teaching in a few districts in the area, I got a job with a tutoring company, I'm babysitting occasionally, and I'm still working at the childcare center. On top of that the wedding is in just 3 months (ahh!) so we're beginning to make our ideas for decorations and such a reality. The other weekend we signed a lease for our first apartment- it's tiny and super cute and I can't wait to move in and make it ours (even if it's only ours for a little while :)!
I'll leave you with this, I feel like it's fitting for life right now:
"In him alone lie our security, our confidence, our trust. A spirit of restlessness and resistance can never wait, but one who believes he is loved with an everlasting love, and knows that underneath are the everlasting arms, will find strength and peace." - Elisabeth Elliot
For the first day in a few weeks I had a day completely off- no where to go, no sub calls, no work, no nothin'. Soooo what did I do but get all dressed up to run regular errands like put gas in my car and run to buy some envelopes. (come on, we all need to do it every once in awhile, it's healthy- do it.) I didn't get to see Ethan, but I did get a sweet package from him and had a nice valentine's dinner with my parents :)
Life has gotten busy lately, so busy that I forget to sit down and just soak in some God time- necessary- I know. I've started substitute teaching in a few districts in the area, I got a job with a tutoring company, I'm babysitting occasionally, and I'm still working at the childcare center. On top of that the wedding is in just 3 months (ahh!) so we're beginning to make our ideas for decorations and such a reality. The other weekend we signed a lease for our first apartment- it's tiny and super cute and I can't wait to move in and make it ours (even if it's only ours for a little while :)!
I'll leave you with this, I feel like it's fitting for life right now:
"In him alone lie our security, our confidence, our trust. A spirit of restlessness and resistance can never wait, but one who believes he is loved with an everlasting love, and knows that underneath are the everlasting arms, will find strength and peace." - Elisabeth Elliot
January 24, 2012
"You're in control & You're all I need"
This song has been playing on repeat in my room all day- love Kari Jobe!
God is GOOD.
Hey!
My brother and sister have gone back to school, we finally had our first *winter* snow (it snowed back in October, but that was technically fall...so therefore it doesn't really count- right?). I'm getting into the groove of living back at home with my parents. I organized and cleaned the room that has been 'mine' for my entire life- came across a few treasures and a few changes to make it more home-y for me the next few months. I've spent my days applying to jobs, watching Friends, testing out some pinterest ideas and wedding planning (can you believe it's just 15 weeks away!).
God has been teaching me a significant amount during these days of quiet. He's been reminding me that life isn't about my plans and how I want things to go- but about Him and His perfect plans. He's been leading me in taking a look at where I place my identity and being defined by Him and nothing else. Finally He's been teaching me to let go, give Him control and rest in His provision and care. Some days this learning is tough and even painful but I know that He is using this season to refine me and draw me closer to Him- so it is beyond worth it.
In the past two weeks I have had five interviews, with a sixth tomorrow and I've gotten two job offers (which I have accepted)- talk about provision! God's also been opening doors for employment after the wedding, which is awesome! I went to an interview today for tssing/respite care and they mentioned they recently opened an office where I will be living after we're married and that they're looking to employ people there for those positions! How awesome is that! God is providing & I know He will continue to do so.
My brother and sister have gone back to school, we finally had our first *winter* snow (it snowed back in October, but that was technically fall...so therefore it doesn't really count- right?). I'm getting into the groove of living back at home with my parents. I organized and cleaned the room that has been 'mine' for my entire life- came across a few treasures and a few changes to make it more home-y for me the next few months. I've spent my days applying to jobs, watching Friends, testing out some pinterest ideas and wedding planning (can you believe it's just 15 weeks away!).
God has been teaching me a significant amount during these days of quiet. He's been reminding me that life isn't about my plans and how I want things to go- but about Him and His perfect plans. He's been leading me in taking a look at where I place my identity and being defined by Him and nothing else. Finally He's been teaching me to let go, give Him control and rest in His provision and care. Some days this learning is tough and even painful but I know that He is using this season to refine me and draw me closer to Him- so it is beyond worth it.
In the past two weeks I have had five interviews, with a sixth tomorrow and I've gotten two job offers (which I have accepted)- talk about provision! God's also been opening doors for employment after the wedding, which is awesome! I went to an interview today for tssing/respite care and they mentioned they recently opened an office where I will be living after we're married and that they're looking to employ people there for those positions! How awesome is that! God is providing & I know He will continue to do so.
January 5, 2012
Perfect Plans
"When ours are interrupted, his are not. His plans are proceeding exactly as scheduled, moving us always (including those minutes or hours or years which seem most useless or wasted or unendurable) "toward the goal of true maturity" - Elisabeth Elliot
January 4, 2012
Hey 2012!
Happy New Year!
Here's my life update, prepare for lots of random.
So far my 2012 has been full of lots of relaxation, reading and guitar playing (with my new beautiful guitar I got as a graduation gift from my parents :)!)- a nice way to kick of the start to a year full of changes if I do say so myself! I haven't been able to start substitute teaching for awhile it seems, which is really frustrating, but there is really nothing I can do about it. God has a plan.
The childcare center that I began working at this summer hired me back for one or two nights a week and I started back there last night. It is so strange to see the contrast of the students I student taught and children around here- it's kind of funny and kind of very sad.
The Passion conference is going on this week in Atlanta and I have always wanted to go- well, this year they've been posting the live sessions online- I've been loving it! So many great reminders and things to think about going into a new year full of a lot of changes.
Lastly, I came across this song today that I wanted to share- I am LOVING the lyrics.
Have a wonderful week!
By This Fire- Audrey Assad
Wrench from me desire
Lord ignite my fire
Until I burn, until I give it all up for You
Until I do what You’ve been asking me to
Cause You deserve much more
Than what I’m living for
So give me passion that is raging and wild
Untouched by pride with joy alight and purified
Chorus:
Left behind by this fire
Are ashes lifeless and grey
But underneath lies desire
That You have placed there to bloom through the pain
To bring honor and praise to Your name
You deserve no less
Than my heart’s brokenness
Until I burn like a star in the sky
To give you Praise, life Your name, to glorify
You have told me I have no shame.
So wrench me, mold me until I glorify Your name
Here's my life update, prepare for lots of random.
So far my 2012 has been full of lots of relaxation, reading and guitar playing (with my new beautiful guitar I got as a graduation gift from my parents :)!)- a nice way to kick of the start to a year full of changes if I do say so myself! I haven't been able to start substitute teaching for awhile it seems, which is really frustrating, but there is really nothing I can do about it. God has a plan.
The childcare center that I began working at this summer hired me back for one or two nights a week and I started back there last night. It is so strange to see the contrast of the students I student taught and children around here- it's kind of funny and kind of very sad.
The Passion conference is going on this week in Atlanta and I have always wanted to go- well, this year they've been posting the live sessions online- I've been loving it! So many great reminders and things to think about going into a new year full of a lot of changes.
Lastly, I came across this song today that I wanted to share- I am LOVING the lyrics.
Have a wonderful week!
By This Fire- Audrey Assad
Wrench from me desire
Lord ignite my fire
Until I burn, until I give it all up for You
Until I do what You’ve been asking me to
Cause You deserve much more
Than what I’m living for
So give me passion that is raging and wild
Untouched by pride with joy alight and purified
Chorus:
Left behind by this fire
Are ashes lifeless and grey
But underneath lies desire
That You have placed there to bloom through the pain
To bring honor and praise to Your name
You deserve no less
Than my heart’s brokenness
Until I burn like a star in the sky
To give you Praise, life Your name, to glorify
You have told me I have no shame.
So wrench me, mold me until I glorify Your name
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